Jester - The visual

One of my favorite hero characters I have created is Jester. So I commisioned a guy to draw a version of him. Here's what we came up with. I am QUITE happy with it.



If there is interest, I can post some Jester info.

Reel Quick Reviews

The name? Lame, yeah, fuck off.

So, I got Netflix (love it) and I decided to start reviewing what I watch. So here we go>

Swingers: This supposed cult classic makes me think that 'cult classic' means 'not that good'. I didn't really get it I guess. It had parts I liked, but overall felt flat. It ended well, but didn't make up for the long stretches of 'huh?'

Definitely Maybe: Not usually one for a chick flick, I rented this because I like Ryan Reynolds. And Like him I still do. I enjoyed this movie. Sure the interweaving love plots felt fantastical, but the individual relationships actually seemed real (which is likely why they failed). Overall I felt that it romantisized love, but in a realistic way. The main character makes many mistakes before he finds 'love'.

Dexter: A showtime series about a serial killer who works for the police. I LOVE this series. All I can say is check it out. Mind you, I hate almost every character in the show besides the serial killer and one cop. But I think that is part of the point of the show. 'Normal' people can be fucked up and 'bad' people can actually be pretty nice. You know, aside from the killing.

That's it till I get some more videos!

For Steagus: NSFW...like at ALL

The S man says I should stick to T&A. As much as I don't like to be typecast, I do play to the crowd. So here we go.



Lisa Ann: Porn Star and Stripper. I dig her as an older (for porn) woman. Nice rack, amazing butt, and legs to die for.



Denise Milani: Model. To my knowledge, no nudes yet. There is also great debate over the realness of her boobs. Most would say fake based on size, but I have known women blessed with chest and slim everywhere else. either way...nice. Plus she has such a sweet smile.



Ewa Sonnet: Polish model and Singer. Two great pairs. Breasts and eyes. I could get lost in either of them.



Maria Yumeno: Japanese pornstar. Know little about her since everything tends to be in Japanese. i just know I think she's hot. I have a think for asians. She can pull off both sulty and innocent.




Last but CERTAINLY not least, Nina Hartley. Long time porn star. You also might recognize her from boogie nights. A veteran, she has (IMHO) one of the best ass/legs out there. Plus she can pull of the naughty librarian like nobodies business.

Satisfied Steagus? Can I go back to other things now?

I'm a Dick!

Am I? I could go with the 'It's all relative' line. And that's fairly true. But I think there is a line one can cross where the majority would feel a certain way, enough to give you that label.

Regardless, it's something I have been wrestling with. I can say that casually, no, no I'm not. If you just saw me on the street or at work, you'd probably think I am decent enough. Even nice. Most people I work with like me well enough. But what happens when you get to know me better? That is the big question. But I think it is far more complex.

First, those with soft hearts probably needn't apply. As I get more comfortable around people, the little smiley wall I put up goes away. I am more likely to say things that could be hurtful. More impassioned in my opinions. More abrasive. And more likely to get upset if I feel wronged. So, if you don't have calloused emotions, take things personally, or are just (what I would consider) overly optimistic, I will hurt you. Repeatedly, until one of us drives the other away. I don't feel that alone makes me a dick. Just not compatible with those kinds of people on a deeper level.

Second is teasing/trash talk. I can tease people pretty badly. Thing is, I rarely tease people that I actually don't like to their face. If I don't like you, you will likely only ever see Smiley to Ambivalent Kevin. So if I am teasing you, I generally like you and I don't actually mean anything by the teasing. Now I don't know if this is a real issue or not, since I don't know if it really bothers people or not.

Third: Passionately opinionated. Man, when I get to discussing something, I can build up a head or steam. Worse, I can do this about topics I don't care about as much as I seem to. Even worse, even when I run out of reason or ammo, I keep going. This I have thought on...how much is stubbornness? How much is competitiveness? How much is enjoying making my mind think fast or dig deep? How much is the enjoyment of the other person's response? I don't know. I don't even think about it when it happens. I read something, a response forms in my head and I fire it off. Sometimes pure fact, sometimes informed bullshit, sometimes random opinion. But all generally coming off as heated.

This rolls into fourth, my love of arguing/debate. I have liked it for as long as I can remember. This I KNOW comes from enjoying making my mind work fast. My brother and I do it all the time. Sometimes about real issues. Sometimes about something random. I like being able to just keep going. But other people see it negatively. I remember someone commenting about my Bro and I doing it, asking why we liked each other. I was like 'why not? It's just arguing...we don't mean anything by it.' At least from my end. But to someone outside my head, I guess it sounds angry. Maybe it is at the time...but if it is, it goes away almost right away. Again, at least for me.

I also know I can be bad with communication. If I don't have easy access to you (see you regularly like at work) I am bad about keeping in touch. Lazy is a big part of that. Is there more? I'm not sure. I don't really keep in touch with like, anyone. When I left HS, I didn't keep in touch with any of my friends (they tried with me). Same with College. And from job to job. I'm not sure if it's because I don't value people enough, or some innate selfishness. I DO know that once I get home I kind of shut off the world. So, unless I made some kind of plans with you, you are unlikely to get ahold of me. But that doesn't explain my lack of communicating, with email so available. I have been trying to get better...but I still suck at it.

I know my 'tough love' approach has been frowned upon as well. See, sometimes, when I feel that kind words or a pat on the back don't work, I instead say something snide or cruel. I think it's a combination of being fed up with a person being undependable or me trying to break them from their shell. It works with varying success. At least short term. ultimately, like in any relationship, you need to realize that a person is who they are. trying to fix them won't work. So accept it or move on.

I suppose I could go on about my faults. But I think I am tapped for now. I will say that I know at the very least in the short term, I can be a good guy. People wherever I work tend to like me. When I take classes my teachers dig me. I'm that guy you can generally call and know I will help you move or work on your computer.

All in all, I am AM curious what other's think. I know asking that will likely garner a bunch of 'yeah your a dick Kevin' comments, or people won't feel comfortable saying anything at all. But I hope some do post in seriousness and with thought out reasons and opinions.

Science Lesson for the Day - Anatomy of a Woman

Since my last few posts have been so serious, and the next one I have planned is not only serious but rather personal, I decided to do something a bit lighter...but still personal.

The female anatomy :) If you asked most guys what part was their favorite part of a woman, it generally breaks down into three pieces: Breasts, Butt, Legs. So I am going to start there. If pressed to pick one of the three, here they are in order.

Breasts: Despite none of my serious relationships being with anyone larger than an A cup, I dig boobs. Bigger=Better. This also goes for areola and nipples. Now, I've never felt any fake boobs, so i don't know how I would feel about `em. But they look nice :) Here's a couple of Boob-type-pics. One is just random. The other is Christina Hendricks....the woman I am going to marry.




Legs: Close second. Now, saying I like legs tells you nothing. Most folks know that saying you like boobs means you like big boobs. But saying you like legs doesn't tell you much. I happen to like good thighs and calves. Think tennis players (the female ones for those too stupid to figure out which ones I am talking about). Sorry, no images for this. The ones I found that I liked also showed OTHER parts that I don't think I should be showing on this here blog. Look up Nina Hartley (she also could be looked up for the Butt pics)

Butt: This practially not important to me. That does NOT mean I don't love a nicely curved ass. And when I see one, I definitely take time to appreciate it. But it has much less impact on how I view a woman. Look up Nina Hartley or Lisa Ann (the latter will be MUCH harder to find because of her generic name).

Having said all that, interestingly enough my last few...actually pretty much ALL of my serious relationships (ones that lasted for several months) were almost a reverse of that list. They all tended to be of the 'pear shaped' body type. Most of their weight being in the hips/butt/legs.

Now, we have the big three out of the way. But those don't begin to address all of the possible wonderful things about women.

Skin: This is actually way up top to me. I am generally a very caress-y person (if you are dating me, and I am not always trying to hold your hand or rub you, I'm not that into you or am holding back for some reason). I love smooth skin. Doesn't have to be blemish free (Look down on my love of freckles post). Luckily most women tend to have soft skin. It's part of the twin reasons to date woman for my friend Shag (Soft and they smell good). A good tan can be nice. But so can nice pale skin (but there is a fine line between soft pale skin and someone that needs to get out in the sun more).

Lips: I tend to like full lips. See miss Hendricks above. I like kissing, so good lips give lots to work with :) Also, could have something to do with the DSL factor.

Eyes: Good eyes can captivate me. BUT, it's not something I normally care about until I see a really good pair.

Tummy: I ain't necessarily talking about some totally flat belly. A nice curve can be very sexy. Then again, so can abs :)

Hips: I tend to like a nice hip to waist ratio.

Feet: This is something I never thought I would care about. But I do like nice feet. I like to rub feet (not for my pleasure, but for hers), so having nice ones makes that a more pleasing experience.

Shoulders: Huh? Yeah, I didn't get it either. But, like the feet, I like giving teh massages. Nice shoulders are a pleasure to rub. Mix in good skin and maybe even freckles and you have some good times!

Hair: I tend to like it longer...and preferably not constantly changing style and color. Sadly, women feel the need to mess with this part all the time. Worse, I know plenty of guys who tell their gals not to cut/dye/change their hair...said women usually do it anyway. But God forbid I shave or don't shave...that makes me a jerk of a man! Longer is better, cuz I like running my fingers through it.

Bajingo: Yeah, I really have no opinion on this one. Perhaps that is because It is the last thing I see of a woman if I see it at all. Since I know they all have them, I don't think about it overmuch.

There are probably lots more things. Noses? *shrug* Hands? I suppose.

Now, that is just the physical list. Personality is just as if not more important. I'm not going to say that looks aren't important. I'm a guy. I want to be attracted to who I am with. That does NOT mean they have to be 36-24-36 perfect. And if they are, only if they are 5'3" *whip crack noises*. As I said above, despite my love of mammaries I have dated few women that chart high in that area. I just would like them to be attractive...to me. And honestly pretty much everyone wants that.

Also, I don't date/not date based on race. I have dated White/Black/Latino and find pretty much everything in between attractive. I'm actually kind of proud that I don't seem to have a 'type' when it comes to looks. Lets me focus on who they are (says that guy who just posted a blog post about female body parts).

Capitalism - The Market works!

I have long been a fan of capitalism. For the most part, I think most of societies ills can be fixed by the market. This of course is a point that many will argue. But I think that is because most don't REALLY know what the market entails. Heck, I don't fully grasp it.

Think about it like this: Your money is your vote. Don't like how Walmart operates? DON'T SHOP THERE. If you do, it is the same as having a politician you dislike and voting for him anyway. Wish McDonalds had healthier stuff on the menu? Tell them and QUIT EATING THERE. The latter has flat out worked. Sales dropped, consumers said it was from lack of teh healthy, McDonalds changed their menu.

Sadly, people don't get it. They either think (just like real politics) that their little voice means nothing. Worse, convenience and laziness easily overcome people's values.

And, just like politics, that is exactly what big businesses WANT you to feel. Walmart doesn't change because they know you are going to shop there anyway. No one listens to third party candidates because the sides know you won't 'throw your vote away'.

It saddens me when I think "You get the government/system you deserve". Very true....for the majority.

I hate our political parties

You know, I hate parties in general. Why can't people just run? Do we need to polarize everything? Of course we do. How do you manipulate and control people without a group to get them to belong to?

I guess I am conservative. But I am NOT a republican. I'm not really a libertarian, despite agreeing with much of what they want. No one party embraces what I believe fully. If I vote Rep, they push their religious adgenda and pro-life/anti-stem cell stuff. If I vote Dem, they take my stuff and give it to other people and take away any sort of personal responsibily for how my life is.

I don't really like either option. And if forced to pick one, it would end up being about other things such as Obama's total lack of any real experience or McCain's age/replacement.

I think the problem is that we haven't REALLY had a good presidential candidate in a while (in the final running). Sure we have charisma and leadership from folks like Clinton (Bill) or Obama. We have experinece and conviction from people like McCain or Dole. But we don't have the mix. Worse, we usually don't have humility. I don't honestly feel like any of them want to SERVE. They have an agenda they want to push forward. People like them, sure. But I bet, if you never saw a picture or heard them talk...just read about what they did before being a president (facts, not manipulative prose), very few modern presidents would have made it to office.

I would love a president who, when faced with an issue, met with experts (of different walks) and passed that info on to the people. Make a choice from broad knowledge. Not becuase one advisor (who is usually a party advisor) tells me something.

When it comes down to it, I'm scared. Scared that our country is going to turn into all the other countries I have no desire to live in. Then where do I go? Suck it up, give my money to the government, pay twice as much for stuff, and sign my freedoms away? Hope some state with ideals like mine decides to susceed (sp)? try and make a difference despite the fact that most people make up their minds about issues before they even have facts?

Maybe governments rotate. China is starting to embrace capitalism, giving its people back their power. While we are leaning more and more on ours, and Europe is heavily dependant on them (with some countries stagnating and/or running into money issues).

Or maybe I should invest in some cheap land in the Arctic, which will beach front property thanks to global warming. Well, aside from the ice caps having actually grown in the past year. guess I need to burn some styrofoam to move things along.

Look at me, I'm hopping on the bandwagon!

I can't help it. I want to talk about Sarah Palin. So, I will.

I found out about this a lot earlier than I normally would. Friday Morning I get an email from McCain himself! Apparently the guy in my position before me was a McCain man, and signed up for this stuff, so now I get it.

Anyway, first impression...Sarah who? Gov. of WHICH state? So I turn on some news (which I rarely do). 10 minutes later, I like it. A few days later, I am confused. Media really paints her badly (perhaps rightly so). Yet, I still like her. Younger, attractive...we need a naughty librarian in the White House. I kinda feel bad about liking this move. Makes me feel sheep like. Especially since she is likely way to socially conservative than I would like. But in many ways, it is pretty savvy on the surface. Female (pick up those Clinton votes), young, far right (get those Evangelical votes). Most of all, it got people talking about the GOP (good and bad). No one I know cared about Obama's nomination of VP. He was a bland, safe pick. In the short term, it was a trump in that regard.

Then again, I probably don't have to worry about any of it, since I am likely to vote libertarian this year :)